Countess Von Fingerbang (madampresident) wrote,
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Second Chance by Shinedown
               Tell my mother,
Tell my father
I've done the best I can
To make them realize
This is my life
I hope they understand
I'm not angry, I'm just saying...
Sometimes goodbye
Is a second chance

This is one of (the many) songs I chose about Miranda striking out on her own and leaving -- even though Alda kicked her out, she probably could have gone home but the decision had been brewing for a while.
Runaway by P!NK
               I was just trying to be myself
You go your way I'll meet you in hell
It's all these secrets that I shouldn't tell I've got to run away
It's hypocritical of you
Do as you say not as you do
I'll never be your perfect girl
I've got to run away

I'm too young to be
Taken seriously
But I'm too old to believe
All this hypocrisy
And I wonder
How long it'll take them to see my bed is made
And I wonder
If I was a mistake

This one's a little bit more blaming. The tone of this is more "I'm leaving because of you." And I liked the reference to the secrets because Miriam was keeping the secret of being pregnant and, more importantly, she keeps the secret of being able to see ghosts.
Bouncing off the Walls by Sugarcult
               And my heart's beating out of my chest
And this town is still making me sick
And every penny from my last paycheck
I've blown it on you

I'm bouncing off the walls again (whoa oh)
And I'm looking like a fool again (whoa oh)
So go ahead and take a picture
And hang it up so you can tear me down

This song was chosen because it's like an abusive relationship. I like the "hang it up so you can tear me down" because it's like what Miriam felt every time Alda talked to her.
Cleaning Out My Closet by Eminem
               see they can trigger me but
they'll never figure me out, look at me now, I bet ya' probably sick of me now, ain't you mama,
i'ma make you look so ridiculous now...

I couldn't have a ficmix about mommy issues and not throw this song in. It's really great because it has a then and now feeling to it and Miranda deals with Alda again as an adult and is more confident in standing up for herself.
I Won't Be There by Simple Plan
               I can't stand you
And you can't stand me
We can't rearrange
You can never change me
Say goodbye
Nothing I say could change your mind because

I can't stay
Tomorrow I'll be on my way
So don't expect to find me sleeping in my bed
'Cuz when you wake up
I won't be there

The mix's third running away song. Reference above songs.
Welcome to My Life by Simple Plan
               Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

EMO. Life sucks for wee Miriam Princhek. I also chose this song specifically because when Joanne first finds out that Miriam is pregnant and she asks "why couldn't you have just talked to me?" and Miriam says that she appreciates her support but that Joanne can't ever really understand what her life is like.
Kiss With a Fist by Florence and the Machine
               My black eye casts no shadow
Your red eye sees no blame
Your slap don't stick
Your kicks don't hit
So we remain the same
Blood sticks
Sweat drips
Break the lock if it don't fit

A kick in the teeth is good for us all
A kiss with a fist is better then none

Alda is physically abusive sometimes and there's the old cliche that it might not be affection but the interaction is better than nothing.
Family Portrait by P!NK
               I ran away today, ran from the noise, ran away
Don't wanna go back to that place, but don't have
no choice, no way
It ain't easy growin up in World War III
Never knowin what love could be, well I've seen
I don't want love to destroy me like it did my

Can we work it out? Can we be a family?
I promise I'll be better, Mommy I'll do anything
Can we work it out? Can we be a family?

In our family portrait, we look pretty happy
Let's play pretend, let's act like it comes

I don't think I have to explain why I chose this song...
Ten Days Late by Third Eye Blind
               Give me a minute now
To figure out my state
Oh I know, she's ten days late
And I don't know
Where to take it
But it's still great
Knowing you
She's ten days late
Ten days late

Reference to Miriam getting pregnant. Even there's no baby-daddy drama and this song is from the point of view of the baby-daddy, I like third eye blind so I figured I'd compromise.

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Come on Get Higher by Sugarland
                So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love
So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love

If you thought that first installment was heavy with angsty, runaway, mommy-issue songs, this installment of the mix is going to be almost exclusively unconsummated/forbidden love between Miranda and Alice.
Just Like a Pill by P!NK
                I'm lyin' here on the floor where you left me
I think I took too much
I'm crying here, what have you done?
I thought it would be fun

I can't stay on your life support, there's a
shortage in the switch,
I can't stay on your morphine, cuz its making me
I said I tried to call the nurse again but shes
being a little bitch,
I think I'll get outta here

This is the song for when Miranda is despondent after miscarrying the baby.
Amphetamine by Everclear
                She is perfect in that fucked up way
That all the magazines seem to want to glorify these days
She looks like a teenage anthem
She looks like she used to be happy with the girl inside
She looks so bored sometimes
And she has that super pale skin and those soft green eyes
She looks like she could have been happy in a better life

Obviously, the song should say BLUE eyes, but can't have everything right? I think this song is perfect for Miranda short of Smells Like Teen Spirit.
Precious Illusions by Alanis Morissette
                You'll complete me right?
Then my life can finally begin
I'll be worthy right?
Only when you realize the gem I am?

But this won't work now the way it once did
And I won't keep it up even though I would love to
Once I know who I'm not then I'll know who I am
But I know I won't keep on playing the victim

These precious illusions in my head did not let me down
When I was defenseless

This is for Miranda coming into her own. She had her mother and Joanne making most of her decisions for her and when she first strikes out, she has Oma leading her and then Alice takes her in as assistant/apprentice and Miranda feels like she needs her. Realizing soon that Alice doesn't understand herself any better than Miranda does and she's losing the illusions of childhood and understanding herself as an adult.
Alice by Avril Lavigne
                I'm freaking out
So where am I now?
Upside down
And I can't stop it now
It can't stop me now

I, I'll get by
I, I'll survive
When the world's crashing down
When I fall and hit the ground
I will turn myself around
Don't you try to stop it?
I, I won't cry

Refer to above song. It's about getting her bearings in an adult world. It's also about getting a grip on her feelings for Alice even though footing is next to impossible to find in that relationship.
All the Young Girls Love Alice by Elton John
                Reality it seems was just a dream
She couldn’t get it on with the boys on the scene
But what do you expect from a chick who’s just sixteen
And hey, hey, hey, you know what I mean

All the young girls love alice
Tender young alice they say
Come over and see me
Come over and please me
Alice it’s my turn today

Ode to Miranda and Alice's UST.
King of Anything by Sara Bareilles
                So let me thank you for time
And try to not waste any more of mine
Get out of here fast

I hate to break it you babe
But I'm not drowning
There's no one here to save

Who cares if you disagree
You are not me
Who made you king of anything
So you dare tell me who to be
Who died
And made you king of anything

Coming of age. Sick and tired of people making her decisions and telling her what's best and what she should do.
Everytime I Cry by Terri Clark
                You call and wake me up, the way you always do
Say you miss me and you're sorry, deja vu
You push the button in the heart you know so well
The wall starts coming down then I remind myself

Everytime I think you might have changed
Put aside the anger and the blame
Make myself believe that there's a way to work it out
Everytime you say let's try again
Begging me to let you back in
Everytime I do
Everytime you lie
Everytime I cry

A song for Miranda and Alice's on-again-off-again, will they or won't they romance. Miranda's tired of Alice promising and teasing and backing out.
Not Myself Tonight by Christina Aguilera
                I'm not myself tonight
Tonight I'm not the same girl (same girl)

I'm dancing a lot
I'm taking shots
And I'm feeling fine

I'm kissing all the boys and girls
Someone call the doctor cause I lost my mind

Cause I'm doing things that I normally won't do
The old me's gone I feel brand new
And if you don't like it fuck you

This song is sort of in honor of Miranda changing her name and reinventing herself AND being bisexual. Kissing on Etienne and Alice.
Everything is Alright by Motion City Soundtrack
                I used to rely on self-medication,
I guess I still do that from time to time.
But I'm getting better at fighting the future,
"Someday you'll be fine.."
Yes, I'll be just fine.

Tell me that you're alright,
Yeah everything is alright.
Oh please tell me that you're alright,
Yeah everything is alright.

Give me a reason (I don't believe a word)
To end this discussion (of anything I've heard)
To break with tradition (they tell me that it's not so hard)
To fold and divide (it's not so hard)
So let's not get carried (away with everything)
Away with the process (from here to in-between)
of elimination (the long goodbye)
I don't want to waste your time.

I just like this song. Even though I can't put my finger on WHY exactly, I think it really fits this part.
When I Grow Up by Pussy Cat Dolls
                When I grow up
I wanna be famous
I wanna be a star
I wanna be in movies

When I grow up
I wanna see the world
Drive nice cars
I wanna have groupies

When I grow up
Be on TV
People know me
Be on magazines

When I grow up
Fresh and clean
Number one chick
When I step out on the scene

Be careful what you wish for
Cuz you just might get it
You just might get it

Even though she starts out thinking she wants anonymity, when she gets noticed by Sonia Rykiel and really starts her career she craves recognition and influence.
I Hate This Part by Pussycat Dolls
                The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part
Where the end starts

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don't wanna try now
All that's left's goodbye to
Find a way that I can tell you
I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take your tears
I hate this part right here

Miranda realizing that she and Alice can't do it anymore. She has to quit her job with Alice so that she can work at the magazine and making the decision that they shouldn't keep seeing each other because the push and pull thing isn't working anymore.
Breathe by Melissa Etheridge
                I played the fool today
I just dream of vanishing into the crowd
Longing for home again
Home, is a feeling I buried in you

I'm alright, I'm alright
It only hurts when I breathe

Miranda doesn't feel like she belongs anywhere or that she has a real home. She misses Joanne even though she views her as a traitor.

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My Favorite Underwear by Liz Phair
               Don't look sexy but it just feels right
Not too dirty and it's not too tight
Why I never threw it out, I'll never know exactly why

Keep it in the drawer beside my bed
It's faded pink now, but it used to be red
Starting to fray at the seams, but I know that you'll still love me
Like you did, like you did
Like before, like before
Like we will, like we will
Be doin' it once more

Oh baby know what your like?
You're like my favorite underwear

I picked this song because Miranda's jealous that Joanne has an interest in Lucas. Not because Miranda wants Lucas anymore but she doesn't particularly want Joanne to have him. Also, now that she's not the only person who can see him she feels like she's losing him as a friend, like he won't choose to spend time with her if he doesn't need her. She wants to keep him in the drawer and leave him there.
Disturbia by Rihanna
               Faded pictures on the wall
It's like they talkin' to me
Disconnectin' your call
Your phone don't even ring
I gotta get out
Or figure this shit out
It's too close for comfort

I chose this song back when I was trying to convince myself this fic could be "scary" and not just sister!drama, daughter!drama, ex-husband!drama, wife!drama.
Dance Tonight by Paul McCartney
               Well you can come on to my place if you want to
You can do anything you want to do

Everybody gonna dance tonight
Everybody gonna feel alright
Everybody gonna dance around tonight

Not exactly sure why I chose this song. I really like it in general. I like the "you can come on to my place" because Cassidy moves in her boyfriend Jesse for the week and Joanne invites Lucas back to hers.
Sisters by Irving Berlin
               All kinds of weather, we stick together,
the same in the rain or sun.
Two different faces, but in tight places
we think and we act as one. Uh-huh!

Those who've seen us
know that not a thing can come between us.
Many men have tried to split us up, but no one can.
Lord help the mister who comes between me and my sister,
and Lord help the sister that comes between me and my man.

The fight over Lucas. The invoking of the unspoken sisters don't date sisters' exes rule.
Ordinary Day by Vanessa Carlton
               Just a dream, just an ordinary dream.
As I wake in bed
And the boy, that ordinary boy
Or was it all in my head?
Did he asked if I would come along
It all seemed so real.
But as I looked to the door,
I saw that boy standing there with a deal.

And he said take my hand,
Live while you can,

This is a song for Lucas and Joanne. I liked the idea that it all might not have happened because he was dead and then was reanimated and it all seems so fragile and unreal.
Fashion by Lady Gaga
               I am, I'm too fabulous
I'm so, fierce that it's so nuts
I live, to be model thin
Dress me, I'm your mannequin

j'adore vivienne habillez-moi
Gucci, Fendi et Prada.
valentino, Armani too.
Merde I love them Jimmy Choo

Fashion put it all on me
Don't you want to see these clothes on me

Maybe this should have been in the second installment but obviously, Miranda is all about fashion.
Beautiful, Dirty, Rich by Lady Gaga
               Daddy I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry yea, we just like to party, like to party yea,

Bang Bang, we're beautiful and dirty rich
Bang Bang, we're beautiful and dirty rich

This is because Lucas freaked out when he saw Jesse in Cassidy's bed.
Viva La Vida by Lady Gaga
               I used to rule the world
Seas would rise when I gave the word
Now in the morning I sleep alone
Sweep the streets I used to own

I used to roll the dice
Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes
Listen as the crowd would sing
"Now the old king is dead! Long live the king!"

One minute I held the key
Next the walls were closed on me
And I discovered that my castles stand
Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand

Coping with retirement... badly.
The Story by Brandi Carlile
               All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I've been
And how I got to where I am
But these stories don't mean anything
When you've got no one to tell them to
It's true...I was made for you

And all of my friends who think that I'm blessed
They don't know my head is a mess
No, they don't know who I really am
And they don't know what
I've been through like you do

The Mirandy love song. Chosen because Andy was the first lover Miranda had told all of her secrets to.
Dreams by Brandi Carlile
               How long, can you hold your breath?
Can you count to ten, can you let it pass?
Keep, can you keep it in?
Keep it behind lashes, can you make it last?

And now in my dreams, I can feel the weight
I can just come clean

I keep it to myself, I know what it means
I can't have you, but I have dreams
Oh, I have dreams, I have dreams

This is for Joanne and Lucas but before Lucas was reanimated. Back when it was unrequited because... he was dead.
Never Grow Old by The Cranberries
               I had a dream
Strange it may seems
It was my perfect day

Open my eyes
I realize
This is my perfect day

Hope you never grow old

This is a shout out to Miranda being basically untouchable and not able to die.
Paralyzer by Finger Eleven
               Well I’m not paralyzed
But, I seem to be struck by you
I want to make you move
Because you’re standing still
If your body matches
What your eyes can do
You’ll probably move right through
Me on my way to you

would you hate me if I said I only chose this song because of the reference to moving through someone like a ghost would?
What Sarah Said by Death Cab for Cutie
               Cause there's no comfort in the waiting room
Just nervous pacers bracing for bad news
And then the nurse comes round and everyone will lift their heads
But I'm thinking of what Sarah said that "Love is watching someone die"

So who's going to watch you die?

Everytime Miranda dies and then comes back there's always been someone watching over her. Living, dead or both.
I Will Follow You Into the Dark by Death Cab for Cutie
               Love of mine some day you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark

No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

For Mirandy. Andy wasn't super prepared from what she was getting herself into by dating and subsequently marrying Miranda but she'll gladly follow her into the dark.
Bring Me To Life by Evanescence
               save me from the nothing I’ve become

Bring me to life
(I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside)
Bring me to life

Yeah... it's because Miranda brought Lucas back to life...

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